It's another blessed day.
Yesterday was a great day. I spent the whole day with Suraya. She stayed at my home last night...and felt extremely happy. I wasn't all alone.
Today is Sunday and it's raining.
ALhamdulillah. It's a cold day :)
I love rainy day so much. Rain takes me to the other side of the world. But a friend said once; rain reminds her to sadness...I agreed..because it happened to me this evening.
All of sudden I felt so sad...and I became more sad as I listened to two songs that I could relate to my feeling at that time...
Sarah Bareilles & Ingrid Michaelson's Winter Song, and Brandi Carlile's Hiding My Heart.
But it's Brandi's Hiding My Heart that potrayed my feeling the best.
There's no need for me to check out the lyric of the song, the title enough to tell everything what the song is about.
It's true...I'm hiding something big...I'm hiding my heart. How I really wish I have the gut to reveal what's really inside my heart.
I'm not so sure if I've been this way before...I think I never been in this situation. Even if I did, the one that I experienced before is totally different with what I'm experiencing currently.
This time it's much "heavier" and even stronger...than the previous one.
I have no idea to whom should I tell what I really hiding inside me...
I only dare to tell it to God...
I'm kind of sad as well...because it seems to be like it has gone...I don't want it to go...I hope this time it will stay...forever...
Ya Allah...please help me...
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