Is It Me..?

Tomorrow is Friday...and then come weekend.
The last couple of days have been slightly "weird"...
I was extra sensitive and emotional...
I have no idea why...maybe I do know why..emm.
Yesterday was the toughest one...almost cracked and wrecked.
I was forced to order laboratory equipments...I have no idea what machine do I need for my laboratory.
As long as I know, I only need those "barang luak"...paints, sponges etc...I don't need machine.
But I WAS FORCED...FORCED to check the price..call this and that person...grrr...
Dugaan is it..?
It makes me wonder; is it me? or is it the people around me that go wrong?
The funny thing is...at the end of the day...the things that I WAS FORCED to investigate aren't in the order list...not enough budget...
Dugaan..is it?
Few things that I learn; be patient...it's dugaan...emotional one...don't give way to hate.
Ooh good he's signed-out...
Am I stupid..?or Am I doing the right thing?
Half part of me says; just give up
but another half of me says; don't give up...jangan berputus asa dengan Allah.
I really don't know...
If only someone could give me an exact answer...
Guess what..this is the moment I hope I disappear...for a while...once everything back to normal, I'll appear again...but hoping that you disappear to me is like hoping thay you're death...I'm not ready...I still have questions in my life..lots of them...
I need to take an early sleep tonight...I planned to wake up at 1 am something...I really hope Allah will give me the strength...
Amin..