On Strain And Stress...

Sun-set @ Taman Selera...represent peace and tranquility

I'm neither psychology nor physiology savvy...The only physiology knowlegde that I posses is about Plant Physiology...but who cares.

But today, I decided to talk about this two Ps...and this is based on my modest experience and fast-facts that I accidently read...but frankly...I rarely accidently read about them..

Currently, I am still in the state of shock!..And now I'm on my attempt to recover myself...

When you're in a total-shock...you shiver and in the state of fear most of the time...for my case, during the first couple days, I always in fear...fear of nothing..day and night...ooh actually, I did fear on something...but it isn't appropriate to mention them in here...Then, during day time, I felt hot inside, but I didn't sweat...and I think I did suffer rheumatism...and what the heck is rheumatism...? Joints-pain...but to admit that I suffer rheumatism is sound too extreme...so maybe I should say, I just suffered joints-pain...not only suffered joints-pain, sometimes, I felt dizzy...and I could felt the stresses and strains that my nerves undergo...well, of course I could...! Oh, and the heart, there'd be a time it beat faster than usual and that's when I felt unease...emotionally and mentally...During those days, I got distracted easily...

To make myself relieve, there are only three things that I afford to do...cry, pray and talk to my family and a friend...slowly...things got slightly better. But still I was in fright, unmotivate and weak mentally and emotionally...and I loved to call those days as "Frail Days"...The days when both my Ps were in torture...

Both my Ps became better after I listened to a friend preach...a good preach that changed my thought and feeling...that's the day I felt like I was lifted once again...maybe not 100%-ly but it did recover me...psychological-ly and physiologycal-ly. But still I was in the state of fragile...but at least gradually I got through my day-time tranquilly. But day-night wasn't that good...until the day I typed this thing, I still couldn't sleep with the lights turned off...looking backward, I couldn't live with the lights turned on...and maybe worst, I couldn't sleep alone...I don't like sleeping alone...I feel relieve when I have someone sleep next to me...

The shock really causes stress and strain to my physiology and psychology...so, to recover the first thing is, I need to re-organize my psychology...then my physiology...it isn't easy and probably takes some times to get back...but I hope...I really hope I could and will recover...A.S.A.P...I miss the old me...maybe this is fate...a turning point for myself...

It's hard to live with strain and stress...but there is no room for complaint...maybe it's time to do the D.I.Y therapy...