In the middle of the journey of our life, I came to myself within in a dark wood where the straight way was LOST…Dante Alighieri, The Divine Comedy.
It’s almost a month now…suppose that I am already Okay!
But I found myself still not Okay! I am in confusion, fear and obviously I am LOST!
Previously, I have a strong believe, that I was only in a total shock!
But a recent bumped with a wise woman changed my thought…maybe I am more than in shock! And that’s when the fear comes back haunting me…And well, that fear cause chaos within me…
Chaos; losing my focus…life is like hell when you don’t have focus…distracted…who can live with distraction?…Now even this short holiday turn gloomy!..
Now, should I believe her or should I believe my own thought?
For days I’ve been thinking about it…
Finally, I realize what I should do…I should take myself back to the start…I am a weak creature…I am not strong…but I have a small believe that I am a fighter…If I couldn’t win through war, maybe I could win through negotiation…believe on her words and focus on healing…God willing, everything will back to normal…peace and calmer.
Just because I’m losing, doesn’t mean I’m lost
Doesn’t mean I’ll stop…Lost, Coldplay.
The path to our destination is not always the straight one. We go down to the wrong road, we get LOST, and we turn back. Maybe it doesn’t matter which road we embark on. Maybe what matters is that we embark. Barbara Hall, Northern Exposure, 1993.
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